A Happy Face

eaxactly two weeks tomorrow. a perfect fortnight. I'm excited to see my family again, I already know it will be a dissapointment. something went wrong along the way man. I always felt like it was my own fault. I've carried around this heavy guilt for a long time. And yeah, I became an internet addict age 12. but we werent better before I did. its like after the divorce parents are supposed to care more and try to recreate the family in a cube. neither parent did man. you left me alone. so I found something to do. then you made me feel evil about it to make yourself feel like you're still "parenting". we have nothing to say to eachother. thats the real problem. there's nothing to say.
merry christmas.

it already is, it will keep expanding at the same rate it has been for like 5 years now. TS never nipped it in the bud, Gato won't kill it with fire. 
it will keep being as much of a thing as it has always been. 

If all good things must come to an end, then all things that aren't so good must also come to an end.
I had to sit and think about this, and research it.  When I did, I realized it was time to leave.  No one plays a game forever anyways.  So I am working on handing over control of Noble Warriors and Noble Padawans to others.  None of my accounts have any unfair advantage, so it will not harm others.
These are the answers to the 20 questions for me.  I am not saying they should be how you think: everyone must answer them on their own.  But for me, this is what I came up with.
Is it a waste of time?  It's increasingly feeling like one. Is it a waste of money?  I would argue yes, based on the amount I've spent versus other games like Borderlands 2/3. Is it a low return on investment?  It feels that way. Does it accomplish anything real world?  No. Does it result in social isolation?  Yes, as no one I know near me plays this game. Does it result in a skewed sense of reality?  Not really. Does it detract from goals?  For me, yes.  I want to become better at other things in life. Is it a pleasure hijacker?  For me, yes.  The thrill is gone. Does it give me a false sense of completion?  Yes. Does it result in the failure to resolve conflicts? No, I'm extroverted and I handle stuff. Does it result in procrastination? Yes. Does it give me irrational fears of social engagements?  No. Does it interfere with my physical fitness?  No, I can play it on the stationary bike. Does it result in laziness?  Yes. Do I sense a lack of discovery?  Yes, I've basically done everything in this game. Does it improve my relationships?  No. Am I experiencing a renewed interest in other things?  Yes, music and school and such. Has my intensity been redirected?  Yes, I want to become better at musical stuff. Do I now have more lifelong goals than short term?  Yes. Do I need more time to accomplish more things?  Yes. So it's time for me to retire from SM.  I will leave my website links active.  I will still exist on discord.  I will still be interested in any balance change discussions that come up.  But I think it's time for me to spread my wings and fly.